tumblewieds
02-18-2008, 08:51 AM
I may have a handle on this thing. I slid off the wagon over the last year, and it's crept up on me. My weight isn't that much higher, I weigh somewhere in the upper 170s, but I was back out of shape. In the past, it's always been all or nothing. It's been dieting and being hungry and watching every bite obsessively. It's been a personal trainer who worked me out so hard I puked. It's been an hour on the elliptical or none at all. For some reason, in the last month, I think I got it! I'm drinking 4-5 liters of water a day, almost no diet soda. I'm making better food choices and eating tons of fresh fruits and veggies. Smaller portions, but not killing myself if I eat fast food one day. I am, however, having just one bean burrito at Taco Bueno instead of two and a side of cinnamon chips. I'm still eating cake, but just a very small slice one time, instead of picking at it til it's gone. I'm exercising, at least 20 mins on the elliptical 3-5 times a week(and I am ready to build up to more). I'm doing 125 crunches and 45 pushups and a good, long stretch afterwards. At the doc a few weeks ago, I weighed 183. Now, I'm down somewhere around 177. I'm not making major changes, I'm not deprived. I don't know what happened, but I finally get that it's about a lifestyle change, and I'm doing it.
I think a big part of the change came when I made the decision to stop making snarky comments about strangers. You know when you're out and you see someone with a funny hat or something, and you poke fun? I'm the queen of doing that :helpme:, I wish I wasn't but I was raised that way. I come from a long line of hypercritical people. A relative called me on it recently, pointing out how unbecoming it is for me to make fun of others (especially in front of my kids). She was right. It's really an awful thing to do , so I stopped. I think that by stopping, I was able to let go of a lot of negativity. I stopped being critical of others, and in return, of myself. I think it corresponds to a lighter me. I know it means I'm at least a better me.
Anyway, just pondering and musing and wanted to share where I'm at with all this.....
I think a big part of the change came when I made the decision to stop making snarky comments about strangers. You know when you're out and you see someone with a funny hat or something, and you poke fun? I'm the queen of doing that :helpme:, I wish I wasn't but I was raised that way. I come from a long line of hypercritical people. A relative called me on it recently, pointing out how unbecoming it is for me to make fun of others (especially in front of my kids). She was right. It's really an awful thing to do , so I stopped. I think that by stopping, I was able to let go of a lot of negativity. I stopped being critical of others, and in return, of myself. I think it corresponds to a lighter me. I know it means I'm at least a better me.
Anyway, just pondering and musing and wanted to share where I'm at with all this.....